WOW!

Im more shocked than anyone! I have always had negative self talk, Ive often quit before starting, Ive many times been scared of failure to the point of not trying.

Then in 2009 the Ironman bug started churning in my guts. Not sure where this came from, I have never been athletic. Quite the contrary; any exertion that made me pant was not for me! 10 years earlier I coveted runners, and so wanted to be one. My laziness would not allow me off the couch to see this fantasy come to reality.

Then in October 2008 I TOLD myself I WAS going to be a runner! I did not allow any conversation or debate. I did not allow any excuses or reasons WHY this would not work. I was a stubborn child! Just like that {snap} I was a runner!

This personal achievement is what dropped the first dominoe for my current journey. I was at San Antonio Rock and Roll 1/2 Marathon 2009; this was to be my first half marathon and my LAST Ciggarette! (Yes I was smoking and running) At this race I saw the most awesome thing.......... An M-DOT tattoo'd on a calf with many tick marks below it. The gentleman was in his 60's! This is when I realized I have NO limits!

I wanted to start pushing myself. I wanted to know; where is my breaking point? Do I have a breaking point? Do any of us really have a breaking point?

This is the most important thing I have gained so far with my journey towards the Ironman; So far as I can see I only have a breaking point when I give up! The only thing that can stop me is me! So the opposite must be true......... If I say I can do it, then damn well I CAN do it!

Im sad sometimes when I realize how long it took me to figure this out, I wonder what else I could have done in life if I was the person I am today.. THEN!

I then remind myself that I am so grateful to have this today that it does NOT matter what might of been, only what WILL be!

Sunday is my First 1/2 Ironman! Only 6 more months and I will COMPLETE the full Ironman Arizona!

Its hard to believe its ONLY been 2.5 years, and that its ALREADY been 2.5 years!

WOW!

Im so excited to see what tomorrow brings!

January 18, 2010 BIKE

BIKE

3:30 pm

2:15:43 - 32.07 miles - avg mph 14.22

negative split, did not turn around until 1:17 minutes. Wind on the back pushed my little bike home

January 17, 2010 RUN

RUN

1:30:01 - 7.9 miles - 11:23 pace

nice late night run
1:20 am

January 16, 2010 SWIM CLINIC

SWIM CLINIC

600m
(100 fs, 100 pull, 100 kick X 2)

400m Iron Pace

400m
(100 fast, 100 slow, 100 slower, 100 slowest)

300m Iron Pace

150m
(25 fast, 50 moderate x 2)

100m Iron Pace

100m
(25 fast x 4)

100m cool

2300 meters

January 14, 2010 BIKE

BIKE

90 minutes on stationary bike.

January 13, 2010 SWIM

RUN

Treadmill  45 Minutes

SWIM

500m
600 drills
700m

1800 meters

January 11, 2010 BIKE/SWIM

BIKE

Indoors

80 minutes on stationary bike

SWIM

60 minutes

500 warm
600 Drills
500 Meters
400 meters

2000 meters

January 10, 2010 RUN TEMPO

RUN

1:20:32- 80 minutes
slow. 25:15 - 2.25 miles - 11:13 pace
Fast. 29:40 - 3.15 miles - 9:25 pace
Slow. 25:38 - 2.40 miles - 10:40 pace

Met with eve earlier. Excited about that. Run felt really good.

January 9, 2010 SWIM CLINIC

SWIM

1:20 minutes

300w
200 pull
100 Kick

1200 -
(400 as 100 fast, 100 slow, 100 slower, 100 slowest) DO THREE TIMES

300 -
(25 drill - 25 freestyle) DO SIX TIMES

200 -
(50 all out, 30 sec rest) DO FOUR TIMES

50 cool

2350 Meters

Felt very god today!

First day that i have felt like 100% emotionally and energy wise! Thank goodness! That was a horrible abyss of blahs!

January 8, 2010 BIKE CLINIC

BIKE CLINIC

Very interesting and informative. When the lecture was complete i did not have enough time to go for the ride. Tomorrow is swim clinic

January 7, 2010 SWIM

SWIM

1:00:41

500 warm
600 drills
500 freestyle
400 freestyle

2000 meters total

Felt a little better today, my breathing is better and i feel less heavy in the water. I would say i'm at 70% where i was before xmas! Not bad for two days. A few (3) more weeks and ill be where i Left off at again!

Well so far so good! Been so depressed i haven't even tracked my workouts. Tomorrow is bike clinic, then sunday is swim clinic! So i will have worked out 6 days this week.

Next week i will have same success!

MY DIET IS SO FUCKED! Meet with eve on monday. Thank the easter bunny!

January 5, 2010 SWIM

SWIM

400m warm
600m of drills
200 cool

1200m total

OK, never go without swimming. For the warmup i felt SLUGGISH, HEAVY AND UNGRACEFUL!

After my drills i started feeling better, but still not 100%

Glad to be back in water, i even had a nightmare i couldn't swim anymore!

January 4, 2010 BRICK

BIKE

1:31:00 - 21.89 miles - avg mph 14.46

The fastest average i have ever had, and i was dealing with wind also. So thats great news!

RUN

30:36 - 2.9 miles  - avg HR 134 - 10:33 pace

Was weird, every time i would look down it was like 118 hr 120, etc. i was huffing and puffing like my HR should be high. SO i had to run harder to get my HR into zone. LOL  WEIRD!

January 3, 2010 RUN

RUN

1:56.22 - 9.58 miles - avg hr 142

Lately my HR is out of control the first part of my run, like 170 then 10 seconds later 155. Need to check battery. Cant imagine my hr is this erratic.

Been very depressed and disappointed with myself the previous two weeks. Not my best effort! 50% at best. So i went for a long run, i chastised myself, then conceded that the only solution is to redeem myself by putting one foot in front of the other and completing a respectable week of training.

DAY ONE! You can do it, and as soon as you get gong you will get out of this funky funk!